It's been a long time....

Why does time go so fast? I haven't been here doing what I should be doing because I have been so so busy. But it's winter again, and a new year and these are the things I've learned:
1. It's really really hard to fall on love with animals that die. I miss my kittie. I never knew that I would care so much...
2. It's really really hard to watch your children commit to half a million dollars. It just seems like Monopoly money. I love the house, I hate the cost...
3. It's really really nice when everyone lives on the same coast. Even though I was happy for Emi to be on an adventure, it's nice to know I can get there in less than 3 hours now ...
4. It's really really hard to remain upbeat through these damn winters.

Sigh..Miss Emily is coming home. I have really missed her while she was on her adventure. I hope there's a plethora of adventures for her to draw upon for years to come. Onward and upwards to the next chapter!

30 days

The thirty day project is underway.

Babies

It's baby missing time again..It just hits me every once in a while that my babies are grown and gone. I have lots and lots of things that fill my life. I'm always busy, and creative, full of ideas. But every once in a while, I'm missin' my babies!

I feel it with Liz if more than a couple of days pass by. She has always been a talker, and we have been talkers together for her whole life. Plus, she lives close, so I get to see her and her hubby on a regular basis. She's fun, and they're fun, and we have fun together. Plus, I feel like she likes me!

I know that Emily is pursuing her dreams, and I've known since she was little that she wanted to go far, but sometimes it's really hard to realize that it will be another several months before I can see her or touch her. Phones and email are good, but she's not a real talker, so I feel the distance on occasion. Especially now that I kind of think that she has changed her teenager thinking about her parents and has grown to like us again like she did when she was a crazy inquisitive little girl who spoke in full sentences from the beginning of the time she could talk! It seems like I hear from her less when things aren't so smooth on her end, so like any Mom, I get concerned. I keep trying stuff- silly projects- to stay connected, but she just doesn't buy in on a regular basis! I need to plan a trip again!

We have had some snow, enough to force days at home, which can be nice at times. I'm ready, though, for spring and sunshine and flowers emerging from the ground. The days are already longer. Today I was in the hot tub at 6 pm and it was still light out. I like that...a lot.

BTW The little bugger is still here distracting us, vomiting on the carpets and biting my husband for no reason on a regular basis. Some things can't be explained.

Time Flies

WOW. Time flies. Still troubled, unsettled, thinking about things that passed and things still to come. Holidays make me think about unanswered questions. I made my sisters go to an Alzheimers event. It was a tree auction. I made a tree with animals because Mom really liked her animals and it felt really good. After the event, all 4 of my sisters and i went out to eat and Cindy pulled 5 diamond rings out of her pocket. Mommy's rings. We pulled numbers and came home with a diamond.